Right. Well,Last night, i broke up with the person i love. Before you go all, "hate hate hate bitch bitch bitch bitch" on me, i will attempt to explain my reasoning, and after that, think what you want.Over the last..oh i dont know, five or six months, i have been increasingly...disconnected is the word ill use, from everything; people, places, thoughts. Its nobody's fault or anything, its just what i feel. Waking up and dreading going anywhere, but not wanting to stay home, not wanting to talk to anybody, not wanting to do anything; its not me. But its whats been going on with me lately. And all the confusion and anger i have felt, i have taken out on the people i love, one of those being George Austin Smith. And i hurt him, whether or not he admits it. My constant psychotic mood swings, and plain bitchiness pushed a gap between us; i know it was there, i felt it, i saw it. Sometimes, I felt like i was talking to a stranger, and sometimes, a lot of the time, i felt like the stranger. im not sure exactly how much sense i'm making; im trying to explain this to my self as much as anyone else. so, what i decided, is to take some time to reconnect with myself (my gosh that sounds retarded) and try and fix whatever's wrong with me. Which is why i did a horrible thing to George. I love him, a lot, which in a strange way is why i thought this was the right thing to do. I hate the way i hurt him, because he is fantastic, and deserves better. I shall stop now. 30-08-09

Right. Well,Last night, i broke up with the person i love. Before you go all, "hate hate hate bitch bitch bitch bitch" on me, i will attempt to explain my reasoning, and after that, think what you want.Over the last..oh i dont know, five or six months, i have been increasingly...disconnected is the word ill use, from everything; people, places, thoughts. Its nobody's fault or anything, its just what i feel. Waking up and dreading going anywhere, but not wanting to stay home, not wanting to talk to anybody, not wanting to do anything; its not me. But its whats been going on with me lately. And all the confusion and anger i have felt, i have taken out on the people i love, one of those being George Austin Smith. And i hurt him, whether or not he admits it. My constant psychotic mood swings, and plain bitchiness pushed a gap between us; i know it was there, i felt it, i saw it. Sometimes, I felt like i was talking to a stranger, and sometimes, a lot of the time, i felt like the stranger. im not sure exactly how much sense i'm making; im trying to explain this to my self as much as anyone else. so, what i decided, is to take some time to reconnect with myself (my gosh that sounds retarded) and try and fix whatever's wrong with me. Which is why i did a horrible thing to George. I love him, a lot, which in a strange way is why i thought this was the right thing to do. I hate the way i hurt him, because he is fantastic, and deserves better. I shall stop now. 30-08-09